Right.. an update so things with that girl kinda..flopped? but not really.. I’m not even sure if a relationship is what I wanted outta it but everythings good now were really great friends even though I’m in Ireland and she’s on holiday somewhere for 2 weeks. Which makes me miss her as a friend as it probably should be. We still talk alll the time which is great and she’s crazy supportive, like the big sister I never had but I’m thankful. I love her like a big sis as well <3
Now.. there happens to be a boy here.. hmm I don’t want to drop names so.. lets call him Panda.. so he makes me ridiculously happy, I get butterflies everytime I see him or everytime he texts me and its crazy.. He knows I like him and I know he likes me we’ve even gone out and kissed. But the thing is again he lives here.. In Belfast.. 3,000+ miles away from me… and I only see him 2 months outta the whole fucking year.. and ugh I dunno he makes it really hard for me to have to leave cause he helps me forget a lotta things and I just DON’T want to leave but I have too I have school to finish and my dad’s back there and friends and everything.. I think I’ve screwed myself over.. royally..
I don’t know what to do.
I’m going to try to work something out… hopefully.